warning: i only post in tumblr when im sad or angry. this is no exception.

i am sad. life is hard. really, the only thing i want is to fall in love and spend the rest of my life with someone. dating really hurts my heart though. you meet a great guy, things are new and fun and exciting. and then out of the blue, it ends. i keep putting my heart out there and trying new things, meeting new people, testing the waters.. but nothing ever becomes of it. how do you fall in love? but more importantly, how do you stay in love?

not saying i was in love in my last relationship, but i was definitely in like. and to have him say it was a mutual ending kind of hurts. i most certainly didn’t want it to end, and im bummed that it did. please dont mistake this post as a “im heartbroken, feel sorry for me” thing. because it’s not. it is, however, a “life is tough” post.

ive gone through a lot the past couple years. my 20’s have been challenging to say the least. mostly, im just learning every day that things aren’t really like the movies. but, i still believe that there is someone out there who will complement me in a way that will blow my mind. if you’re out there, love, im waiting however patiently i can.. loneliness is a killer. literally.

spent new years arguing with an atheist about Jesus. started smoking. went to florida for spring break! finished my last semester at wsc. graduated cum laude. moved to omaha. started my first big girl job. got promoted twice. still haven’t made any real friends at work, but im getting thereee. had my first panic attack. slept with the ex a bunch. joined a new church. stopped going because people there were boring and i really didn’t fit in. dated someone new. wanted it to work, but it didn’t and i wasn’t sad at all about it. started drinking. found out that i’m codependent. bought my first self-help book. stopped caring entirely about what others think of me. missed my best friend who spent 4 months in italy. became a legitimate homewrecker. didn’t give two fucks. decided superficial friendships are the only way to go.

yeeeahh… i’m over it all.

tumblrbot asked: ROBOTS OR DINOSAURS?

neither, scenefag.

You see your friend and you’re like:

And they’re like:

(Source: marlishus, via strubthepigeon)

if you’re 22 and single, can you adopt a baby?